It hurts so much seeing you move on to someone new. As a best friend, I am so happy for you. As your before and not your after, it's the hardest thing to handle. What hurts me even more is when I come across you guys getting close. I can't help but notice that you're already looking at him the same way you looked at me when we loved each other. But life goes on, I'll survive.. I hope.
i stayed home. i actually did. for quite a while. i leave usually 2 hours upon awaking. but i stayed. til 5.
just when i was about to leave the house. i saw a cute dog infront of the lift. i saw a problem. the dog was scared. the dog had a high-pitched bark. i was afraid. so i pressed for the lift. wanting to just go off. the lift opened on its side. it went in. i was stuck. i cant be in the same lift as the dog.
so i waited. but the lift didnt want to go down, which made the other lift unable to come up. i wanted to press a level 1 for the lift the dog was in. but everytime i went close to it, it will start barking. so i gave up. i waited for a good 20 mins. talking to the dog. yes i talked to the dog.
then perhaps my talking was convincing enough. i reached my hand in and pressed “1”. the lift went down. i saved myself. (:
so yes. i have an exam in 3 hours time. but im unprepared. im screwed. i dont want to think about it.
im THIS close to quitting school. again. which i know im not supposed to. damn it. why cant i just love the fact of SCHOOL for once.
"I’m just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze and love is a riddle.” -Lenka, The show.
i know in my part. it’s my fault. thats why i’ve always loved individual projects. because i know we all work differently, and we have different commitments. at least i know mine is a hugeass one.
im a last minute person. always. forever. that’ll be fucking hard to change. but still. i’d like to see things done. im sorry. especially something i know will work. i cant say the same bout T law. but for the others. it’s just so attainable with last minute work. we all know that. nvm.
i’ve said this too many times. but i know im going to say it again. i hate school. it’s not the letting you go far. letting you experience. bullshit. it’s just another school restricting your moves. restricting your other learning except of what they want you to learn. thats why learning through experience, working, is still the best approach. or youll just learn to be disciplined enough to score well.
i had a huge ass toothache on monday. totally unbearable. it lasted til today. my wisdom tooth is budding. and i cant pluck it out. cuz it’s not grown OUT yet. crap.
i got screamed at in the bus by some cranky old man on tuesday for playing my mp3 on that volume. i got my ipod since i was 14(im 19 this year) and it has always been on that volume. or louder. and best part? one side of my earpiece is spoilt. so its only left with half the volume. he shouted in front of everyone that my music was too loud and he didnt appreciate it. the girl beside me was tapping her fingers with my music. i was caught by surprise (asleep) i didnt know how to react. i only said. “get a life”. argh.
and also in these 3 days. the most important people in my lives are missing or are down. one refuse to reply my text. the other refuse to reply my convo. fuck.
i checked out urbandictionary.com for the word “single”.
this is what i get.
“it means that you are alone not lonleyyou maybe single but you are always surrounded with friends and family and you are a stronger person not to be scared to venture life, yourself”the best one i found so far. (:i cant fall asleep. my school’s at 8. and im working after. my project’s not done done. fml.